TW FOR SPLITTING, AND EGO DEATH.

WE DON'T READ TOO MUCH ABOUT SYSTEMS WHO HAVE LOST THEIR ORIGINAL...BUT IN A SPECIFIC WAY. IN A WAY WHERE THE ORIGINAL IS VERY MUCH STILL THERE, BUT JUST BROKEN UP INTO PIECES---US. ACTUALLY, I THINK I'VE SEEN SOMETHING LIKE THAT ONLY ONCE. OUR ORIGINAL (WHO WE ALL CALL SOME VARIANT OF "MR SINGLETGUY") WAS NOT VERY COOL IN MY OPINION. HE HAD A VERY TROUBLED CHILDHOOD AND A FURTHER TROUBLED TEENAGEHOOD, WHICH, WELL, LED TO THIS. TO ME! I AM VERY GLAD TO BE HERE. EVEN THOUGH I KNOW I AM SOMEWHAT PART ORIGINAL, I FEEL VERY APATHETIC, SOMEWHAT NEGATIVE TOWARDS HIM. MOON IS VERY FOND OF HIM. THE OTHERS HAVE NO OPINION AT ALL. EFFECTIVELY, HE HAS EXPERIENCED EGO DEATH. NOT OF HIS OWN ACCORD, BUT OH WELL, RIGHT? THE ORIGINAL, BEFORE THE GREAT SPLITTENING OF 2024, WAS VERY INTO FICTIONKIN SPACES. WHENEVER HE WOULD GET A NEW FICTION KIN TYPE, HE WOULD FEEL...DIFFERENT, I SUPPOSE. LIKE MANY THINGS HAD CHANGED. WHEN HE HAD FIRST ACQUIRED "ME" AS A KINTYPE (PERIDOT), HE ACTUALLY FELT ASEXUAL FOR SEVERAL WEEKS. OF COURSE, THAT LET UP, BUT I AM HERE NOW AND I AM AROACE. I WONDER HOW LONG WE HAVE BEEN IN THE OVEN. BUT, YES, HE HAD IDENTITY ISSUES GALORE. FRAGILE AND FRAGMENTED. AND IT WASN'T HELPFUL THAT HE ALREADY HAD COPING MECHANISMS ALONG THE LINES OF DISSASOCIATION; WHEN SOMETHING BAD WOULD HAPPEN, HE WOULD DETACH FROM HIS FEELINGS AND PRETEND TO FEEL NOTHING. AS IF THE WORLD DID NOT EXIST, NO WORLDLY ATTACHMENTS TO FEEL ABOUT. I THEORIZE THIS COPING MECHANISM WAS USED DURING THE GREAT SPLITTENING, BUT THE "BAD" WAS SO MUCH MORE BAD THAN ANY BAD EXPERIENCED BEFORE. (I HAVE JUST TERMED THE GREAT SPLITTENING BY THE WAY, I THINK IT IS FUNNY) IN THE MAIN PAGE OF THIS WEBSITE, THE WORLDS ARE LISTED IN ORDER OF FORMATION. I DON'T WANT TO GET TOO PERSONAL HERE, BUT I FIND THIS STUFF VERY INTERESTING. ACHT WAS THE FIRST TO "FORM", HE WAS THE MOST RECENT "KINTYPE" HAVING BEEN ACQUIRED I THINK ONLY ONE WEEK OR SO BEFORE EVERYTHING BEGAN TO FALL APART IN OUR SOCIAL LIFE. BEFORE THAT, THE KINTYPE ACQUIRED WAS VRISKA, A MONTH OR SO BEFORE, SO SHE CAME NEXT. YES, I REALIZE NOW THE HEADMATE FORMATION HAS WENT IN BACKWARDS ORDER OF KINTYPE ACQUISITION. GANGLE ACTUALLY WAS NOT A SPLIT, AND CAME LATER FOR REASONS SEEMINGLY DIVORCED FROM TRAUMA OR THE ORIGINAL, SINCE SHE WAS NEVER A KINTYPE. I AM NOT SURE IF I WAS ACTUALLY PRESENT AT THE FORMATION OF THE SYSTEM AND THE DEATH OF THE ORIGINAL. ACTUALLY, IF I HAD TO GUESS, BEGRUDINGLY, I THINK I SPLIT OFF OF VRISKA AND NOT ACHT. BUT JUST A GUESS AND NOT TOO IMPORTANT. AT THE BEGINNING I WAS VERY QUIET, APPARENTLY DID NOT LIKE SWEAR WORDS AND ONLY APPEARED AS LIZARD IN HEADSPACE. BUT THIS ISN'T MY AUTOBIOGRAPHY---PERHAPS I SHALL WRITE THAT SOMETIME THOUGH! THOSE ARE MY THOUGHTS ON THE ORIGINAL'S EGO DEATH, AND I GUESS CONTINUED EXISTENCE AT THE SAME TIME. SOME CHOOSE TO MOURN HIM, I CHOOSE TO CELEBRATE HIS DEATH CUZ IT MEANS ~I~ GET TO LIVE >:3. WOOHOO!~ TRAUMA!